I need closure from Ryan before it drives me insane. It's been at least a year since I've last talked to him but still he haunts my thoughts. I know he was my first love and all but why does he STILL have this effect on me. I really really need closure. The worst part is there is no way for me to go about that. He has to come and town and with my luck when he does I will be out of town again. The fates don't like me. Damn this higher destiny! Give me some closure. Anything. That's all I'm asking for. I can't move on until i recieve closure or at least talk to him last time. That way I'll never have to wonder again.