Because livejournal isn't working and I need to write this before i go crazy and so i can get oiver it.....

I almost got fired today.

This guy came through my line and I didn't card him for the Capri 120s cigerattes he wanted to buy. He happened to be two years younger than  me and I'm 18. Therefore I was going to sell tobacco to a minor. I just thought he was werid when he said "you failed. I'm underage." So like 5 minutes later Kari tells me I have to go upstairs to talk with the manager. So she takes over for me. (Hopefully my till will not be off). So I'm nervous and he goes through the proper procedure. He's like if it happens again You'll be fired. That scared me shitless. That guy that came through my line worked at another Publix. They radomly do internal checks. I failed. But it was better than the police doing a check under cover and arresting me. I'm just upset about it.

I'll deal...by exercising at this obsene hour.

Currently Playing Something Like Human By Fuel bad day see related

I need closure from Ryan before it drives me insane. It's been at least a year since I've last talked to him but still he haunts my thoughts. I know he was my first love and all but why does he STILL have this effect on me. I really really need closure. The worst part is there is no way for me to go about that. He has to come and town and with my luck when he does I will be out of town again. The fates don't like me. Damn this higher destiny! Give me some closure. Anything. That's all I'm asking for. I can't move on until i recieve closure or at least talk to him last time. That way I'll never have to wonder again.